Walking On A Broken Foot

For the past two years I’ve woken up to so many dark days that my sky is black. I lost the ONE, had my only therapeutic pacifier ripped from my heart, and financially dug a hole to the center of the Earth. My body tells me that I have to grow up and the partying has to be moderated. My body fights with me, constantly.
I drink too much.
Music turned it’s back on me for the first time ever in my life. I couldn’t run to it for help because it became part of the problem. I’ve lost and regained myself so much in such a small amount of time.
It was all my fault and a result of poorly made choices and shitty circumstances. No one should ever feel this way and I don’t wish it upon my worst of enemies.
Which is why I am taking the first few steps on broken feet and tattered spirit. My freedom and responsibility made me happy, so moving out is a big step in a good, but dangerous, direction. Professionally I’ve decided to finally rid myself of a job that made my life Hell as well as giving me the best of friends.
My heart still longs for the ONE, but I guess patience is my best friend in that area. If you read this, know I still miss you, and hold on to the last bit of hope I have left. I’m sorry I became the worst version me. But I’m edging towards the better me. And I don’t want to forget you, like I think I’ve said. Not at all.
I hadn’t written a full thought in so long. Thank you for read my reintroduction.

*Javy*

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The xx’s Romy Madley-Croft delivers a gorgeous solo version of “Angels” in this video shot in a Tokyo hotel room by Jamie-James Medina.

Had to post this, beautiful song. Reminds me of that someone special who taught me what love was. I miss you.

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Listen to “Chained”, the latest track released from the xx’s forthcoming album, Coexist. 

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Listen to “Chained”, the latest track released from the xx’s forthcoming album, Coexist

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Watch the new Shins video for “It’s Only Life” directed by Hiro Murai. 

Love it

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Watch the new Shins video for “It’s Only Life” directed by Hiro Murai

Love it

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I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair. I hate the way you drive my car, I hate it when you stare. I hate your big dumb combat boots and the way you read my mind. I hate you so much it makes me sick, it even makes me rhyme. I hate the way you’re always right, I hate it when you lie. I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry. I hate it when you’re not around, and the fact that you didn’t call. But mostly I hate the way I don’t hate you, not even close… not even a little bit… not even at all.

I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair. I hate the way you drive my car, I hate it when you stare. I hate your big dumb combat boots and the way you read my mind. I hate you so much it makes me sick, it even makes me rhyme. I hate the way you’re always right, I hate it when you lie. I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry. I hate it when you’re not around, and the fact that you didn’t call. But mostly I hate the way I don’t hate you, not even close… not even a little bit… not even at all.

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Top 10 Things I want to do right now

10.Die
9.Die
8.Die
7.Be dead
6.Stay dead
5.not feel emotion
4.Die
3.Not hurt
2.Live
1.Die again

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Photo by Gregory Harris.

Yeah!!

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Photo by Gregory Harris.

Yeah!!

Not my lyrics, but Alex Turner knows best

Do you still feel younger than you thought you would by now
Or, darling, have you started feeling old yet
Don’t worry, I’m sure that you’re still breaking hearts
With the efficiency that only youth can harness
And do you still think love is a laserquest
Or do you take it all more seriously
I’ve tried to ask you this in some daydreams that I’ve had
But you’re always busy being make-believe
And do you look into the mirror to remind yourself you’re there
Or have somebody’s good-night kisses got that covered
Well I’m not being honest, I’ll pretend that you were just some lover

Now I can’t think of there without thinking of you
I doubt that comes as a surprise
And I can’t think of anything to dream about
I can’t find anywhere to hide
And when I’m hanging on by the rings around my eyes
And I convince myself I need another
And for a minute it gets easier to pretend that you were just some lover

When I’m pipe and slippers and rocking chair
Singing dreadful songs about something
Well I’ve found a better method of pretending you were just some lover
Well I’ve found a better method of pretending you were just some lover